i’v never been strong enough to keep you around.
but this time, i’ll hold you tighter than i ever used to.
so let me tell you about the rain,
and how it has been raining for days.
and i curled up into your body,
and felt the warmth and that heartbeat that sings me the sounds of life.
and my life hasn’t been the same since the demons left.
and i like it now.
the ghosts still follow me at night but i’m okay now.
and let me take you to the river and let me sit at the edge,
and allow the words to run out of my head.
towards the ground and sink under water.
you can watch them if you’d like.
the river is flooded now.
let me sink too.
let me sink with you.
because i know where i want to be now,
and i know what i want to do.
the world seems bigger when you’re here with me.
the bones in my body shake with every word you let
slip from your mouth,
i guess i’m intertwined in your light,
so we have a little bit of time.
let’s go swimming,
and let’s dive under the water,
and hold each other in the deep.
and we’ll count every word that was said.
and count every decision like the pebbles skipped across.
and i know.
i’ll only sink with you.
the frozen touch.
and the kisses not wet enough.
yes, i feel it too.